Cheering

Oie.... who say whatever you do now is not to my concern. You are my wifey OK...
I will be sad and disappointed if you are not working hard for yourself.!!


Pull your ear.. Poke ur neh neh..+)

Thanks

Ah Dae Dae... keep you in the heart.
I will smile don't worry. I will always smile looking at your sms..

Thank you =D

Earthquake

Dae... First time in my life I experience earthquake. The building was shaking. But it couldn't shake my pain away...

Actually I am no longer angry with you. Maybe its you ba. After awhile, my anger subsides. Always the case.

I am not replying your msn message at the moment. Mainly because I have this fear in me. Fear that again you are going to be cold toward me. Fear that you no longer want to chat with me. Piggy, you are affectionate all the while. I want to remember you that way...

Its the path of life I have chosen. When I looked into the pair of tear-filled eyes, I can't bring myself to do it. Its too much for someone to take. Just too much for someone who had bet the whole life on me.

Yet I couldn't let you go for the love is too deep to forgo. You always know what's in me. No one can understand me better than you. Now mourning the distance between us, my wife in the heart, I refuse to turn you a stranger like where we have begun. Forgive me for remaining silence for your affectionate and passionate are all I want to keep.

I never know tear is warm until you dropped yours on my arm. I thought you had fallen asleep in my shoulder. The songs, the wave and the breeze had made us feel comfort. Never would I know, its your heart I have touched and it is your love you showed in return....

How deep am I bury in your heart? I will never know....

understand

Thank You. I understand your message...
You have to always smile too even if you are sad ok.


In Future If u need me, I will be there de. Text me.


My wife, With Love I bite...

For me

[在错的时间遇到对的人]
Now i am letting everything go
buried further deeper
it was meant for u

For me she is hurting herself...

~~Why hurt her?!!! She is a vegetarian twice a month. She deserves better than that...
~~Please, I beg whoever is up there, bless her with happiness

I only want her to be happy as for now.

Promise

在错的时间遇到对的人 ....
缘起缘灭间，留下了不少难忘的回忆；不知道自己能记住你多久，只能承诺。。。我的祝福会陪伴着你到老

In my heart

She is in my heart.... A complete family of our own...

So Kannina

I don't know why now. Suddenly i don't wish to see her face. Yet I hope to hear from her.

What a mix feeling. Soooo Kannina!

Far

When time goes longer, the feeling for a person becomes lesser. When time ends. This same feeling becomes nothing. Who can defy it?

For someone to keep the same love even if it has gone for years its not easy. I always believe its possible till 27 Sep. Nothing last...


Let me continue bah...Maybe its mere few months. Let see how long I can lasts..

Alone now. Ah dae dae... live happily ok.

Love u always...

Chase

My heart is still as heavy. Those string links to dae seems to have undone. Not use to its weight. That is how I feel when u lost your love. But I have lost faith to love too. Suffocating. Choking. Hate that.

Lost interest in everything. Its so Kannina.

Looking at the busy traffic. Suddenly I feel so aimless. Looking at the same bridge that I use to run. I start running. Run and run. Keep on chasing.

When I stop and looking back, I can't help but ask what have I been chasing all along.....

Ha...Nothing lasts. I suddenly give up the faith that I use to believe.

Like a child playing tantrum. I refuse to reply her. Just refuse to do it...

On my own now

Zbj after today you are on your own now... Piggy has gone. never going to return. I dun noe when we will meet again.

From now on, lets see how far I can go with the memories...

Dun cry zbj...
You will meet her again de...

Tons of weight

My heart weights heavier since last nite...
So much weight that I need to breathe harder...

So much weight that I hope it can drop from its attachment.
I don't want it anymore...

I remember watching a show some years back. A child is taught to steal by his parent. In school, the teacher canned him for being a thief and force him to write "I want to be a policeman" 200 times. He gets confuse and ask: "why does adult world seem so complex."


Indeed its complicated. I am not sure what is right and what is wrong now. Walking in the mist... I feel so lost and lonely...with unknow fear shaking me.

27 Septemeber 2009

Today is a very special day for me...

She finally starts chatting with me...

Still the same old me...

Still the same old piggy...

Still we can't chat for long...

But it never get connected at all... the huh and bo liao say it all...

Smile

Zhu Ba Jie...
Don't cry Don't cry...
Smile ok.

Ah dae dae... Muack!

Funny Dae

Sometime she can be funny. I was looking at one of my old msn screenshot. At that moment we were not in talking term. She warned me not to call her dae again. Could not adjust to it immediately, I addressed her Dae again.

You know what was her reply? She shot back: " You want dae look for lobo!"

Even today I still laugh at her sense of humor..Oh Piggy...=p

AND SHE STILL A SUPER LATE QUEEN.... cutie grapie...

Thanks dae

Ha... I dun noe abt her. But for me... Kinda heart warming to chat with her in MSN again...

Simple conversation. But She never fails to make my day with HA HA HA...

And here is my Ke Ke Ke.

Enjoy your night ok! Muack.

Wrong

.....

What's wrong with me.

Considering

Ni zhe ge sha gua... and wo zhe ge sha dan...

It has been 2 months since we last MSN. Thanks for giving me your view and the removal of the comments....

Starry Starry nite

Starry Starry nite ...

I am just missing you in the stary nite.
Where is the star that shines me bright...



Starry starry night
paint your palette blue and grey

look out on a summer's day
with eyes that know the
darkness in my soul.
Shadows on the hills
sketch the trees and the daffodils

catch the breeze and the winter chills

in colors on the snowy linen land.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they did not know how

perhaps they'll listen now.

Starry
starry night
flaming flo'rs that brightly blaze

swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in
Vincent's eyes of China blue.
Colors changing hue
morning fields of amber grain

weathered faces lined in pain
are soothed beneath the artist's
loving hand.
And now I understand what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity
how you tried to set them free.
perhaps they'll listen now.

For they could not love you
but still your love was true

and when no hope was left in sight on that starry
starry night.
You took your life
as lovers often do;
But I could have told you
Vincent
this world was never
meant for one
as beautiful as you.

Starry
starry night
portraits hung in empty halls

frameless heads on nameless walls
with eyes
that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met

the ragged men in ragged clothes

the silver thorn of bloddy rose
lie crushed and broken
on the virgin snow.
And now I think I know what you tried to say to me

how you suffered for your sanity

how you tried to set them free.
They would not listen
they're not
list'ning still
perhaps they never will.

Reply

Zhen de heng tong le....

Art Work

Looking at the art piece along the lobby, there is one that caught my attention. I am curious to know where the author began his first brush stroke. Whether he completed it in one or two strokes?

No answer...

But she did answer me. A single stroke from the middle complete all. My opinion is two strokes. Thanks to her. Looking at it carefully, its a single stroke.

She does not understand me. Not at all.

A Surprised Call

About three weeks back while I was on my way home I received a call that surprised me. My ex-colleague ring me.

"What can I do if I accidentally poured water onto my laptop.. It can't start now. So many things screw up today.", she sobbed. Cried quite badly. I knew something was wrong.

"Hmm.... first make sure you off it. Do not start. Hair dryer may be too hot for the notebook. Use a fan. Blow at it for the nite. Try power up next morning. If still not working then send to service center. Don't worry ok. Same thing happen to my friend. It works the next day when the notebook is dry.", I calmed her down.

Sensing that she was ok for conversation. I tried to find out if she was really ok. Guess what was her reply. She cried, "Can you come to my place. Bring me home."

Shocked by her reply. As the conversation continued, I realized she had quarrel with her boyfriend and was hoping I could drive her back home together with her belongings.

For a second I could not reply her .... It reminded me of how dae and me got started. Sigh, When you miss a person badly something would pop up to make you miss her more.

I rejected her. I did not want to do it. By that time I had already parked my car. It was closed to 1200am. I could not have the conversation at home so I walked in my neighborhood round and round to cheer her up.

I did that with dae before. She laughed at me when she knew I walked in the neighborhood just to have conversation with her. The whole incident reminded me of her again and again....


Today when I talk to this ex-colleague again. She is still with her boyfriend. The notebook? Her boyfriend sent it to the service center a week later. Faulty parts were replaced free of charge. She still uses the same notebook to msn me.

Cheer =p

Oiee... Stay happy. Smile .. cheer... =D
Bounce back. Bounce back..~~~ha Ha HA

♀♂☼♫ ♥ ö ~~ke Ke KE....

Impact

Her display message in MSN left a heavy impact on me... It keeps playing in my head.

Is the message that keep me awake or the agony in it?

Lost

Am lost. Confuse... .... ...

Meet the right person at a wrong time

That inflict pain in both heart which can never be removed. Dae... are you ok?

Can time heal it? I don't know. Bite my lips, take the blow. Let the pain be part of me. I don't know how long it will last and how much more I can take it.

ZBJ only if you are happy..
Promise me, walk to the furthermost of your life ok. Jia you my wife...


I.

Miss.

U.

Lot!

With love I bite...

zbj

Piggy... U have been online for so long...
Was thinking of texting you. But i guess there will not be any reply from u. So I drop the idea.

Sigh..so she is offline now@510pm

...zbj

Words

Pachelbel... Many words I want to say to you. But I do not know where to begin. U cross my mind each day. No matter where am I...

The feeling gets deeper but you seem to drift further.

Grapie grapie... Just u and me.

How are you

Dae...

Miss u.

That simple

I dun want u to forget me...
I dun want u to hate me...
I want u to love me... always do..

Just that simple.

Sick

So much I hope when she said I Love you, it was not at an impulsive moment of youth. I choose to believe her love is eternity.

Result is out I guess. I hope you pass with flying colour.

Am sick today... Tired too.

Recall

Bakar Baka.... u make mi miss u...

She shouted at Ji Cuxin cheater too.

He got stuck in the situation. He had no intention and control about it. He's hurt badly...

She cried too.

she is back online

Zhu ba jie!!! She's protesting..its so chen xin yi...If am online she purposely goes offline....oh piggy...
..u make me smile now do u know that???

How come my heart beat seems to go faster...Oh should I msn her again...keeke...=) just smile... s.i.l.y thought..

Ah dae dae...


Ha..just did a test...its my self delusion. Am online she is still online.


......Still she is not replying me. ZBJ!!! What in your mind...I want to know ..

What is that?

Is there eternal love in this world? Is there????????

Baby

Feel like calling u again... Bee! Ah dae dae. Piggy! Close my eye i see you.. Crazy! You always say that to me... Keke.. Oh it will be fun to look at ur face again. To mischievously touch ur boo boo and walk with my back facing e front and my cheeky face facing you... "Ah dae dae, smile for me ok.. Ha HA HA PLS !"

Blowers Daughter

Oh no... That Ang Mo Anthony is singing "Blowers Daughter"... What a coincident...

Dae's Message

Though there is no mention of my name in her blog. I have this feeling that the song in her blog sings her feeling out.

Its hard to accept that we parted while we are still in love. The feel, the emotion and the love is losing day by day......

A lovely short romance that leaves me a wife in the heart...


The Blowers Daughter

And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her sky

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial

I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off of you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...

Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?

I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off of you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...

'Til I find somebody new


--By Damien Rice
I read every single words to get your feeling.

Hungry

I was reading some of the old posting. Oh the XO carrot cake makes me hungry now =p.
It is already 1am. Alright, I will have the carrot cake as supper in my dream. Good night.

Jia you (Buck up)

Jia you, Jia you...I have been saying that.

I don't know when you will lose the feeling and all the memories. As life moves on dae, I will soon become a passerby in your life...

I Can't take my mind off you, I Can't take my heart off you ....
I just can't.

Let the song plays in my heart then.


Whatever you are doing L.S.L, Jia You!! Please JIA YOU!!

Its my fate to love you

Just too similar. The way they tease each other, the way they quarrel and the way they react to love...

While watching the episode, I had this sudden urge of ballooning my mouth so that my face looked round. I used to do that infront of dae when we were in LS Park.

If she said somethings funny out of the blue. I would pout my lip and blow out air from my mouth. Yes I made funny noise from it and she always hide her smile. I would never forget that expression. Humble, shy and cute. Inevitably, I laughed too.

Just some wonderful moment.

Sigh, Are we really going to be stranger again?

Everywhere

You are just everywhere...

Everywhere you are...but not dae.

Strange feeling

I do not know why. Her disappearance creates anger in me. I can feel slight hatred growing in me too. Yet when I look at the photo we took together. My heart melted. Why such feeling?

Life

I have read her blog quite sometime back just that I have no time to write my feeling out. Since the last week of August, I have never seen her online in MSN again. Not a single comment from her now. In short, I am deleted from her MSN list. She is moving on with her life. A determine move to get me out of her life. SOOoo kannina!!

Sad and painful of course. Its nice to know she has a to-do list during her school break. At least some information that she is getting her focus back and doing fine in life.

How about myself? As for me, life has changed too. I am no more in my comfort zone. Life is getting busier. Every morning I have to look for a safe and nice spot for my car. At work there are more things to think about now. As for people, I have to build up friendship from scratch again. So its another challenge in life. Good thing is I am now in Kallang, a location nearer to indoor stadium. Maybe I will run into her just one day... Ha, just my silly thought.

At time I still drive to her carpark just to catch a glimpse of her at the window. It will be good to know if she is now slimmer or ... keke.

Anyway, her room was dark and the kitchen was empty most of the time. There was a moment I thought she was in oversea or no more staying there.


My wife.. my baby dae ...

dae

dae...