Unplanned Movie

A famous monk in Taiwan said:

"Tooth are hard and solid. Tongue is soft and smooth. When one is old, teeth starts dropping but tongue still remains intact to the body. Sometime one needs to be soft, so that future can be smoother and longer."

I am enlighten by what he said. I learn not to bite on the problem for too long and be less persistent on things that are not within my control. Always let natural take its course.

I still sms her when think of her. Greet her good nite almost every nite and send her powerpuff girls MMS whenever i am free.

As usual, i sent her Bubbles wallpaper on Thursday afternoon. Normally she would reply me "Thanks for the pic". But on that day, she replied me: " Want to watch movie in the evening? My meeting is postponed."

I was a little surpise but overwhelm with joy that i stopped whatever i was doing in the office. I quickly browsed the web for the possible movies we could catch. Finally i decided to meet at P.S.

Thanks to my colleague. He was in a hurry to fetch his son whose teacher was waiting impatiently for him in the school. He speeded his Nissan sunny all the way from office to Bishan MRT station after work. By the time I reached P.S, I was 20 minutes earlier.

I thought I could boost infront of her on my punctuality. Just then my phone vibrated. She sent me an SMS saying that she would be late.

I made use of the time, walked into a comic store to check for new release of Nauto. Unfortunately it was not out yet. However i saw a few phone straps that were nice.
I thought of buying one and secretly attached it to her phone . I hope she would find the strap in surprise and smile to me in appriciation. However, that was all pure thought. It never materialised because of the long queue at the cashier. I went back to the theatre to wait for her.

She appeared at the theatre about 5 mins later. As always, she was busy. Talking in her mobile phone while walking to my direction. It seemed that she was in a discussion. I waited for her to finish before deciding on what show to watch.

I wanted to watch "fearless"(huo yuan jia) starred by Jet Li. But I worried that she might not be interested in Kong Fu movie. hence I suggested some other shows instead. To my astonishment, she wanted to watch "fearless". May be i didnt understand her enough. I should be more frank next time. Well, it suited my thought and we bought the tickets.

I didnt know why. The atmosphere seemed strange to me this time. I was supposed to build up the relationship but despite of her sitting next to me, I have the feeling of us sitting miles apart. That is the feeling - When I try to get nearer, she seems to move further away.

I tried to overcome the feeling. After the show, I talked a little on the movie and while on the way back, I changed the topic to her work. I was hoping that i could suggest somethings helpful to her. May be she was not ready to accept me or may be i screwed up things again. She listened to me but her expression told me she was worried. Somethings had bothered her.

I was thinking of walking with her back. But her expression suggested otherwise. Thus i dropped the thought. She alighted at her station and I continued my journey home. It was an unexpected outing but the outcome was not as joyful as what i wanted it to be.

Yes the feeling of miles apart put me away. I thought I wouldnt want to contact her today but somehow I picked up my phone and called her. I was thinking that she will say.. yah wats up and I will ans her.. nothing just like to chat with u for a while.

But i had everything wrong. I lost my words when she picked up the phone. I mumbled a few words, didnt even know what was I saying and quickly put down the phone. I was like making a fool of myself. Well it was another "Kannina scew up.

Am I making a step closer? I dont know.